Too much time, too many wasted days

i've been really happy lately...and i don't know why. that's all kids. lol.

i got my new schedule:

1st semester:
1. U.S. History/Law - Dougherty - 103
2. Intermediate Algebra - Kane - 511
3. Study Hall - Badalato - ACE - 503
3. Gym - Mancuso-Lopez - BDF
4. English - O'Brien - 213
5. Lunch
6. Study Hall - O'Brien - 213
7. Computer Imagery - Van Kleeck - ACE - 10
7. Ceramics - Van Kleeck - BDF - 401
8. Advanced Drawing and Painting - Gallagher - 17

2nd semester:
1. SAME
2. SAME
3. Forensics - Ramirez - 815
4. SAME
5. Human Anatomy - Dehaan - 307 <-gonna drop it to stay in lunch i think
6. Advanced Drawing and Painting - Gallagher - 17
7. SAME
8. Gym - Burns - ACE
8. Study Hall - BDF

i've never been so happy to be back at school all day. my lunch kicks ass. i missed it. i have 5 art projects to make up for gallagher. blah. but i just finished one so 4 more to go. wooo. me and kait are gonna have our party night possibly? tomorrow night? whoaaa i can't believe how happy i am about all of this shizzayyyy lol.

i decided to drop BOCES because the boredom was murder. i can't sit at a desk for 2 and a half hours straight with no breaks and my ass numb. its like shoot me in the fucking foot man. not to mention being in one class for that long...my attention span goes out the window. i have an attention span of a fly. so it obviously turned out that BOCES isn't exactly what i thought it was going to be. so now i'm going back to KHS for full days and going back to my art major. i'm taking ceramics, advanced drawing and painting, computer imaging, and my sciences...either forensics or human anatomy. so hopefully starting tomorrow i'll be there all day. and during my senior year i'll be able to leave early. so that's another plus. i think this is gonna work out better for me. let's hope. this is also actually the first time i've looked forward to being at KHS all day. that really says something. don't ya think?

OMFG that concert was the fucking best ever!!!! I wish Godsmack played longer though. They kick ass. I love them so much. Metallica was awesome too. We were right in the front, with a death grip on the rail/gate thinger. I can't believe we actually got that close!!! jfioqwetgfujk;bfgaspcyq3wi I loved it. Best ever. Fuck yeah. Def. seeing them again.

tomorrow's godsmack and metallica and i am so effing happy!!! even though it doesn't seem like i'm that excited, i really am...its just that i'm still sick..but i am really happy. i can't believe its friday. this was such a long, drawn out week. i'm exhausted. to make my long ass week even better my fucking tci teacher gave me a 60 on my english paper. her reasoning - "i didn't use my own words". please tell me what the fuck that's supposed to mean. i didn't plagiarize. there wasn't even anything to plagiarize and i just don't do that. i don't understand if she didn't agree with my sentence structure, vocabulary, etc. all i know is that she had no right to go under the assumption that i didn't write my paper. that was the first paper that we ever did for tci and she gives me a shit ass grade that she can't even justify. she doesn't know that my english teacher last year pulled me aside and apologized to me for having to put up with the bullshit and being bored because i already knew and understood the material and that i'm college level. (yes his words). so today i went to go and find her, which was friggin impossible. so now i have to wait until thursday to discuss my paper with her. and hopefully she'll give me credit or at least respect for wanting to discuss it with her and change my grade because i did not deserve a 60. blah effing blah. oh, isn't school just wonderful?...spare me...so now i'm going to dinner with my parents to celebrate their anniversary...even though it was like a month ago...but whatevs.

i'm making new friends in criminal justice. wooooo go me. that's all for now. godsmack in 3 days!!! hell yea!! and i hope i'm better by then...being sick sucks major ass. i have to go read more of serpico. blah. i hate that book with my life. fuckin a.

i thought i at least could of held off until december. but no. i just had to get sick didn't i? fopqwhfk,ahbvgja. and the best concert in the world is in five days. i WILL be better by then. i hope. but most likely i won't be. ugh.

Have you ever...
[x] been drunk.
[ ] smoked pot....
[ ] kissed someone.
[x] rode in a taxi.
[ ] been dumped.
[ ] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[ ] been in a fist fight.
[ ] broken a bone.
[ ] got hit by a car --
[ ] snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ] been arrested.
[x] gone in a mosh pit.
[ ] stole something from your job.
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[ ] gone on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.
[ ] had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ] been to europe.
[x] skipped school.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[ ] lost a family member.
[x] played 'clue'.
[x] had a sleepover party. when i was in like 3rd grade haha
[ ] went ice skating.
[ ]cheated on a bf/gf.
[ ] been cheated on.
[x] had a sweet sixteen.
[ ] had ur tonsils out.
[x] had a car.
[x] drove.

Do you...
[ ] have a bf.
[ ] have a gf.
[x] have a crush.
[ ] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[ ] feel happy.
[ ] hate yourself.
[ ] think you're attractive.
[x] have a dog.
[x] have your own room.
[ ] listen to Hawaiian Music.
[ ] listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock.
[ ] listen to country.
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[x] get good grades. sometimes?
[x] play an instrument. guitar & drumsss
[x] have slippers.
[ ] wear boxers
[x] wear black eyeliner.
[x] like the color blue.
[x] like the color pink.
[ ] cyber.
[ ] claim.
[ ] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[x] have long hair. its getting there
[ ] have short hair.
[x] have a cell phone.
[x] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager.

Are you...
[ ] ugly.
[ ] pretty.
[x] ok. i guess. i have no effing idea
[ ] handsome.
[x] bored.
[ ] happy.
[ ] bilingual.
[ ] Hawaiian.
[ ] Samoan.
[ ] Filipino.
[ ] Korean.
[ ] British.
[x] white.
[ ] black.
[ ] mexican.
[ ] asian.
[ ] short.
[x] tall.
[ ] grounded.
[x] sick. blah what else is new
[ ] mad.
[x] lazy.
[x] single.
[ ] taken.
[x] looking.
[ ] not looking.
[ ] brokenhearted.
[ ] talking to someone.
[ ] IMing someone.
[ ] scared to die.
[x] tired.
[x] sleepy.
[ ] annoyed.
[ ] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[x] in your room.
[ ] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[x] in your pjs.
[x] ticklish.
[x] listening to music. when am i not? lol
[ ] watching tv.

Not too much has been going on. Tomorrow's my last drum lesson. I think I should go in my music room. I haven't been down there for a long period of time. Its been like 99876765 weeks. Blah. School sucks, what else is new.

My new bag came - love it. Half day on friday thank god. I can't wait until fall...well actually its here but temperature wise it isn't. We went on patrol today and I had the radio...that was a funny scene. Rocked at voice!! Hahaha kidding. But I made more progress so yay for me. Tonight is the 2nd to last drum lesson. Then I can finally be on my own...the way I like it and I can teach myself what I want. I like to be creative that way I guess? I dunno. I'll go back...someday...just don't know when that day is yet. And holy shit am I ever going to get a boyfriend? I'm starting to think not. I need to stop being so picky I guess. But every time I say that I think of all the shit that's happened to me...and yea...I'm just going to have to deal with being boyfriend-less which is ok for now...blahhh whatevs.

No school. Hell yea!!! Changed the look of my journal. It still looks ugly but whatevs. Godsmack & Metallica concert in 23 days!!! HOLY EFFING SHIT!!!! Tomorrow's Friday!!! And me and Kait are gonna partayy!! And I got to order my new bag yay!!

I hate school. Nothing bad really happened but I'm just sick of it already. Can we go back to summer now? BOCES rocks I wish I was there instead of KHS but blah what can ya do? I have orientation at BOCES tonight and ugh I have to go. Blah whatevs. Tomorrow's drums...did I practice?...nope. I don't know what's happening to me. I haven't lost interest in it..but...I just never feel like playing them. Maybe I should take a break and teach myself so that I get better. I feel like I suck so bad...but I don't I guess? I dunno...but like with guitar I got so much better after I took a break so maybe that'll work with drums too? RAWRRR I think...I'm just...tired...and frustrated...and I need to shut up now. I just can't wait until Thursday..no school...oh yeaaa. Then how long until winter break?!?

Wednesday:
Back to school. Fucker. All of my classes aren't that bad but I still hate school. But I absolutely LOVE BOCES. I wish I could be there ALL friggin day. But I can't so poop.

Yesterday:
WE GOT MY DOG BACK BITCHESSS!!! Apparently she missed us too much..awww. So now it's all happy!!!

Today:
Got back to KHS at like 20 to 2 again so I got to go home early. HELLS YES!! So that rocked. Its friday and thank effing god. Its about time. I have to memorize the word code for criminal justice but that's ok cuz I know almost all of it already. Tomorrow's lunch at my nanny's cuz we didn't go yesterday cuz we got my dog back <3!!! Then Sunday's the taste of new paltz...blah. But now I don't have to get up early to go so its ok. Then we might go on the boat? hmm...

Last day of summer and where was I?...School I'm a loser I know. But whatevs. Me and Kait hung out and then went and got our working papers and what not. School's tomorrow and I really don't want to go at all. So far I know of NO ONE in my classes. I especially know of NO ONE who's going to BOCES in the afternoon blah. All I know is that this year BETTER go by fast because I hate school so much. It should go by faster cuz I won't be there for half the day...at least I hope. But I have voice tonight so maybe that'll cheer me up? Maybe?...doubtful but eh it was worth a try...and to make things worse...I still miss my dog and want her back...blahhhhhhh

We got rid of Chelsey (my dog) today...I can't stop crying...I miss her so much and I want her back...but we can't cuz its too late blahhhhhhh :'(

Does anyone have ANYTHING with me at all!!??

1st - US History Gov./Law 11 - Dougherty
2nd - Intermediate Algebra - Kane
3rd - Gym (1st semester) - BDF
3rd - Gym (2nd semester) - ACE
4th - English 11 - O'Brien
5th-8th - Career and Tech - Criminal Justice - Ingellis

Gym is so fucked up. They didn't have enough room for me in BDF all year so I have to switch half way through the year...how gay is that?! UGH

I woke up at 7a.m....blahhh talked to Kait and the otha cracka and watched the movie Showtime. I forgot how much I LOVE that movie haha. Cleaned a little...but eh what else is new? Went to my Nanny's for dinnahhh and went to Stewart's to get her milk and bananas and orange juice and OMFG that guy that flirts with me so OBVIOUSLY was there AGAIN and I swear to god I'm gonna end up having a nickname like....banana girl...or girl that comes in every thursday to buy bananas and milk and crap...yea something along those lines. Hahaha. But that's ok cuz he's hot anyway. Then me and my mom went over to Chambers and I was sooooo hyper and I was singing like crazy and 4 people from school that I know walked by like mid-belting out song moment and it was so embarrassing!!!! Hahahah thankfully I think it was too dark and they probably didn't know who I was...so thank god for darkness haha. Yeah...and that's my great day. School's in less then a week and that's shit. I don't want to go back...ever. I want my effing schedule but I don't want to have to actually go to school everyday doing that schedule. I hate routines. I hate schedules. I hate advanced plans. I like last minute changes and unexpected stuff and doing something different every day. That's why school bores me so effing much. Blah. I don't know.

I went shopping today. I got new underwears...I love underwear shopping..HAHA anywayyyy it was ok at first...but too many people and blahhh. But I saw Brigit and I haven't seen her in like 9987865754643 years. So we talked for a little while but my mom REALLY wanted to go home...she hates shopping more then I do. I'm glad I got clothes and stuff...but blah I wish there was another way to know that everything'll fit without actually having to go to the mall and trying the shit on all the time. And I had voice todayyy and the otha cracka text me right in the middle of my lesson and all you could hear was my phone vibrating like 654432 times hahahha. I should be done shopping for a little while at least...I hope...hahaha.